Frames Of Escapism

He walks into the familiar room

Gaudy flashes of tired souls shift upon the floor

Dizzied from the sultry smell of cheap alcohol and illusioned dopamine

Complemented by a rowdy tune, making its way through the speakers to those heedless ears

Broken wine glasses lie on the ground

He watches,

As the dark liquid slowly makes little paths of its own

Through old boots and faded high heels

Lost in a parted dream to withhold...


Taking one more step,she dashes another mile

The slender lines of each lane merge with her seared panting

She battles with both hands of the clock

Desperate to reach the finishing line that constantly alters beneath the hazy horizon

Though medals of gold embrace her neck

She had never tasted victory on her deadend tongue

So she runs to find the true feeling of appreciation she devotedly needs...


He turns left,hoping to be right this time

Numbed shoulders head towards the freshly prosaic labyrinth

Frozen snares of broken mirrors haunt him once again

Virulent laughters come sliding from every crack

He knows they will stop soon

Yet what he fears is their echos clinging onto the silent circles under his eyes,

Darkened brutally by the lonely nights without dreams of amethyst to spare...


Her eyes adjust to the melanoid moonlight

Dried pupils search around the suffocating room

Blinds drawn shut

Limb bodies stacked every corner quietly rusting without a soul

Tall walls taste of their lost tears,kept hidden of shame

Another day chisled by their alienated ,tawny bones

Horrified by the scene,she tries to let out a bitter scream

Yet later she realises the glue of her own fears drying on her cracked lips...


Frames of escapism hammered on the wall

Around every corner of the street

Among the muddy footsteps on the snow

Was the winter so cold?

When did we become strangers to our own fingerprints?

When did we begin running away from the reflections inside?

Maybe, its time for a change...


Lets pour ourselves a glass of introspection

Get drunk by insight

Lets run with our eyes closed

Feel the wind on our hair,the warmth through our muscles

Lets look straight at the mirrors

Find the right way through the reflection as a whole,not the cracks

Without fear,lets open the blinds

Show the sunlight the beauty of our tears

Lets not hammer more frames,

But nails of hope instead...

To Be A Shadow

Good morning!
How are you today?
How was your weekend?
Are you okay?
It was great talking to you again!
Hope to see you soon....

Seem familiar?
These trite phrases of daily social regime
Yet does any actually mean a thing?
The replies produced of languid smiles and expected lies seems to say it all
Yet the order is never to be restored...

Who am I to judge you might say
Maybe I don't even exist in this world of yours
Maybe I'm nothing but merely an illusion
But I've been to many places ,seen too many faces to just stay that way
So listen if you might,or simply ignore me once again...

I've been all around the world
Molding myself into millions of different shapes and forms
Devotedly searching for the freedom I've never known
The freedom of feeling,the freedom of being, just like my walking hosts
I long to touch and smell,to laugh and cry,to breathe and die...

But it was later that I found out,
Those bodies I followed didn't really exist either
They only held plastic pink roses and pretended to smell the earthly scent
They painted their emotions grey and wore glasses coloured of lies
Was that any diffrent from a shadows life like mine?

When the sun bowed to the stars
When I became whole under the raven sky's embrace
When I sang my hosts goodbye
When those fabricated glasses were left on empty nightstands
When the grey paint was washed away
When suddenly bright colours lit bravely along with the moon
I realised the truth,
I realised I wasn't the illusion
I didn't need a vessel to be real,I needed a soul
I didn't need a flesh to feel,I needed emotions
Nor did I need a a shape to form into,
I just needed to accept myself as a whole...

Lost Control-Anathema

                                                    This song means a lot to me...
                                 I would immensely recommend checking this groups other songs as well.

Angus & Julia Stone-Change

            I love this song :)

Bir Düş Gördüm Dün

Bir düş gördüm dün,

Gecenin narin derisinin sıyrığından doğan kızıl yarada

Sordum geceye gözlerindeki yaşların nedenini

Cevap vermedi

Dudakları henüz bir hece üflemeden kabuk bağlamıştı sessizliğe

Oysa sessizliğinde gizliydi var olmanın bedeli...



Bir düş gördüm dün,

Kaybolmuş bir ağacın derinliğe uzanan köklerinde

Sordum ağaca saklanmasının nedenini

Cevap vermedi

Kırılgan dalları direniyordu keskin fırtınaya

Oysa köklerinde gizliydi asıl direnişi...



Bir düş gördüm dün,

Siyaha boyanmış bir gölün su taneciklerinde

Sordum sulara renklerindeki karamsarlığın nedenini

Cevap vermediler

Titriyorlardı üzerlerine fırlatılan her çakıl taşıyla

Oysa birbirlerine sımsıkı kenetlenmelerindendi yansımalarının koyuluğu...



Bir düş gördüm dün,

Gerçek olanla yansımanın yer değiştirdiği bir aynada

Sordum ona bu yanlışın nedenini

Cevap vermedi

Sadece boşlukta sallanan gözleriyle baktı bana

Oysa kendi yorgun gözlerimden başkası değildi karşımdaki...

　

　

　

The Creations Song

I can hear it!

I can hear the creations song

Tasting of a doleful note

Yet that's what makes it so beautiful

Just like the heartbreaking beauty of the sunset...
 

It hides under the wind

Through the scarlett leaves sailing by

And the shades of green waiting to fly

All swaying in different directions

Yet all know the branches where their fragile veins first became to die...
 

It hides in the rain

Notes carved on each drop

Just like the arched movements of a poets pen

Similar...

Yet none sculpted the same
 

I let it tickle my skin

I feel it taking the shape of my pores

I let it wash through me

A tear escapes to unite with the rain

A smile blossoms to reach the wind

A heart unfolds to join in the sweet rhythm

A soul is freed to embrace the beauty of its darkest secrets

Too long they've been on hold

A kiss seals them with it's warmth

It's time for freedom to take it's toll...

I can hear it!

I can hear the creations song

Tasting of a doleful note

But now,

I can also 'feel' it....

　

The One's Left Untold

Crowded

Too many voices here

Reckless

Too many lies pretended to be sincere


Our tears are suffocating in time

Numbness strokes our soul

We've no more reflections to withhold

For we're the lie above all and beyond


Stranded

Too many prayers left unheard

Cold

Too many hearts have been interred


Why are so many hands bare of loves warmth?

Instead flooded with sullen air and vapid explanations

Just creating more puzzles to be solved

Except the missing piece is the compassion yearning to be evolved


Lonely

Too many faces stand dissolved

Tired

Too many eyelids wearing down before sunrise has been absolved


Swaying in our own stories

We are the ones left untold

Hidden behind a love poem or another sad tune

Or maybe among the snow falling down in june

Even under the cracks of the moon...

Our existence will always be questioned

But it cant be denied

Though our bodys may be forgotten and pushed aside

Our memories will be forever standing beside...　

　

　

　

　

　

The City Without Lights

Ever stopped for a second?
Just to watch the flickering lights in the city
Ever stayed up all night?
Just to watch the dark kindle with the light


But have you ever wondered,
What it would be like if there were no lights?
Except for the muted shivers of the moon
And the droplets hidden in the winds of monsoon


Where will the beauty go when deprived of simulated glimmer?
How would you find your way without flashing symbols and signs?
What use will a shattered mirror be?
Who will you blame to find a lie to agree?


Confused, you walk the unknown road
Hope the dark will be your companion through the veil
Yet you feel more exposed
For there is no flash to be posed


As your eyes slowly adjust to the nightfall
Your pupils unfold with the awe of a new sight
You let your tears dance with the intrinsic vibrancy
The soil has awoken with the soft scent of benignancy


Your soul speaks through the wings of fireflies
Through the sapphire waves of the ocean
A reflection of a child is formed under the brims of blue
With moist eyes so familiar to you...


Do you remember her?
How she used to smile
Without proudly gained titles before her name
Without a society crafted frame


Although you might feel like a stranger to her
She knows who you are
Although you might think she belongs to the past
She is here to last


Embrace her for who she is
Love her for her genuine flaws
Hold her hand to let her know youre here too
Dont hide her,let her through....


As the dawn greets the city without lights
And the silhouettes are tangled in the crowd
Remember what it was like under moons lost spark
The truth is more visible in the dark...

Only-NIN



                                                             

  Trent Reznor <3

Eluveitie-Brictom

I really can't describe how this song makes me feel...its like a journey in the past.Simply beautiful!

Control...

An old poem about losing control while trying to gain it...

Awake again
Under the faded moon
Under the deathly visions of misunderstanding eyes
Gently floating over the sweet scent of an ethereal nightmare

The mordant touch of emptiness once again clinches onto my skin
Taunts me as it slowly settles in
Tainting my hope with a bitter gnaw
Sealed wounds open to let out our sacred tears

Let these streams of silence caress my cheeks
Soon they'll turn into scarlett mirrors on my lips
I'll let each one whisper me their forgotten story
Let them fall freely as I watch their broken shadows hit the floor

I'll pretend that I dont see the reflection beside me
Paint the pain with my screams
Torture myself with the same thoughts of a diseased mind
Dream away the hollow fire burning inside....

What happened?
Did I go too far?
Have I lost myself?
I hate change!
I want stability!
I just wanted some control!
To feel 'whole'.....
Fill up my minds empty hole...

But the more I fed the pain
The more rapacious fear became
Thoughts couldnt slow down anymore
Hours of intrusive silence was all I had

I just wanted control...
And the price was my mortal soul......

The Story Of The Phoenix

One of the most heartwarming memories of my childhood was when my mum would take out the huge book of bedtime stories and  read me a story from its magic dusted pages before I went to sleep.I loved letting my imagination fly around the fantasy kingdoms filled with spells,beautiful princesses and handsome princes,houses made out of candy,enchanted forests,true lovers and the best part,happy endings......I remember being so eager to read them myself that I wanted to start school immediately.So until I could start school ,I would gaze at those colourful pages and imagine what the story would be by looking at the pictures.But when I eventually grew up and started reading basically everything I could get my hands on,I realised that not every story had a happy ending,which I have to say was very crushing for me as I always imagined those colourful pictures in a very optimistic and idealistic way.So,recently I've been thinking about this,which made me wonder how I would imagine a story now ,looking at the images of life and decided to write it down.At first I wanted to tell the story using a poem but I decided to try writing in a different style for a change,so its not really good,but i hope you will enjoy it :)

-Once upon a time there was a young phoenix who lived in the luscious woods of Silvanus.A place created only for the creatures of the forest to safely live together in harmony while been protected by the Roman God,Silvanus.Blessed with the sacred drops of rain that nurtured the earth,woods  of Silvanus always glowed with emerald luminosity,full of broad leafed trees which were homes to many .But there was one tree bare of the green glimmer,its branches old and tired,holding nothing but a rusty cage drooping down like a shadow of a ghost at night.Inside the cage was where the young phoenix lived.Fearing she would be judged by others,she refused to leave her cage,punishing herself for her flaw of not being able to sing-being a faulty creature on such a flawless place...

She would pretend to sleep all day and ignore the songs sung by the others while inside she always dreamed how it would feel to open her beak and let her essence flow out through the soothing humming of her voice.However, reality caught her dreams when the sun settled down every night and she was left alone in the cage she built herself.Her longing tears would burn in the reflection of the moon,but they could never escape through her eyes- just as she couldnt escape her own self...

Everyday was a constant cycle of struggle with her own mind,body and soul.The yearning for freedom but also the fear of alienation,the need for company but also the dread of clustered isolation woundnt stop haunting her.So the phoenix stayed in her cage as the years passed by and her body weakened.

One night, no less special than the others something different happened for the phoenix  resentful of change.As she sat watching the moon like she always did,she suddenly started shivering as a strange feeling of heat started to conduct through her feathers.The heat grew higher with every breath she hassled to take.Oxygen was being suffocated by the heat that soon aflamed burning orange.She was dying before she even begun to live!  But all she could think was the years spent under the twisting bars of fear...And for the first time in her life she felt a tingle down her throat and painfully let out a desperate cry,soon followed by a chain of screams that led to a beautiful hymn of despair.She was singing! All of the other birds flew over to the new,beautiful voice they've never heard before, only to see it the phoenix burning in her cage.Everyone was shocked,they didnt know what to do as the phoenix stretched her crimson and gold wings for the first time and with one last sorrowful call, started dissolving into ashes.She had reached infinity...

However,little do we know about the meaning of 'infinity'...The phase of infinity will continue on a circular dimension where a new beginning blooms from every ending.That night wasnt the end for the phoenix,it was the beginning of her new youth.The next morning,when the other speices of birds visited the cage to set her soul free by releasing her ashes to the wind,they were shocked once again. Just as they were going to start,the anemic dust awakened with a tangerine spark,turning into a blaze.The ashes whirled around together gaining speed with the blaze and soon lighted up with a blinding red beam.The beam elegantly formed a shape of golden wings of a reborn young phoenix.She had returned from her own ashes!But this time,she saw her given existence as a gift and not a curse.So with the power of joy,she broke the lock of the cage with her beak and let herself flee to the beryl sky.Feeling the cool air embracing her wings,she let out a crystal tear ,no longer a reflection of her despair but a nourisher of her hope...Knowing she will only be more stronger with everytime her feathers aflame,she started to accept who she is....The young phoenix was now free.

Every strory has an end,but merely a narrator,I dont know what the ending of this story is.Did she live happily ever after? Did she feel less alone? Could she find a place where she belonged? I cant answer that...but I can say that she definitely didnt give up and lived happily ever fighter...

Yalnızlık?

Yalnızlık....tek bir sözcük...halbuki bu küçücük sözcüğün sonsuz anlamı,milyonlarca yürekte kapladığı koskoca parçaları vardır.Gözyaşlarının pas tuttuğu havada süzülen bir ruh gibidir adeta...sessizce yanaşır ve solgun nefesiyle yüreğinize sadece sizin görebileceğiniz bir kafes üfler.Oradan kurtulmak zordur,kilitleri açabilecek bir anlam bulmak zordur.Her yerdedir o,sıcacık bir avucun şevkatine aç ellerde,bir zamanlar sevgilinizin kokusunun sindiği yanıbaşınızdaki soğuk yastıkta,kalabalığın içinde kaybolan ruhunuzun fısıldadığı şarkıda,özlemin yakıp kavurduğu kalbinizde,korkunun dondurduğu gözyaşlarınızda,kırık bir aynadaki yansımanızdadır...Nerede,hangi şekilde olursa olsun sonuç olarak hepimiz hissederiz onun varlığını.Lütfen bitsin diye yalvarırız her duamızda... Insan ruhu yalnızlığı sevmez...Evet, bazen nefes almak için,düşünebilmek için ona sığınır hatta dost bile olur ama sonsuza kadar kalamaz yanında.Çünkü o bir insanın gözyaşlarını paylaşabileceği güvenilir bir dost olmakla beraber,aynı zamanda onu boşluğun içine iten bir düşmandır.Derin,uzun ve karanlık bir boşluk,çıkış yolunuzu nasıl bulacağınızı bilmediğiniz,belli bir zaman sonrada vazgeçip savunma durumuna geçtiğiniz bir boşluk.Işte tam burada ayrılır hepimizin yolları,bazıları savunma olarak kaderi suçlayıp onu kabullenir,bazıları tamamen reddedip onu başka duygularla doldurmaya çalışır,bazıları ise onun gölgelerinden oluşturdukları serinlikle hissetme duyusunu uyuşturmakla birlikte her çeşit duyguya kapatır yüreğini.Ama hiçbiri çözüm değildir bunların.Bir çözümü,ilacı var mıdır yalnızlığın?Burada yine yollar ayrılır çünkü gerçek çözümü bulabilecek olanlar yine yalnızlığın hastalığına kapılmış olanlardır.Etkili bir çözüm için ne gerekir?Önemli olan çoğumuzun boşuna zaman harcadığı ince detaylar değildir,şu anda sahip olduğumuz bakış açısını genişletebilecek bir mercektir...farkındalık...yalnızlığımızı büyütenin çevresel koşullardan çok kendimizin tanımaya çalışmadığı duygu ve düşüncelerimiz olduğunun,çaresizliğin kuraklığını dindirebilecek olan hapsettiğimiz gözyaşlarındaki umudun ve kendimizi her ne kadar aidiyetsiz ve yanlış anlaşılmış hissetsek de aslında beraber bulutları paylaştığımız bu dünyada bizim gibi hissedenlerin olduğunun, dolayısıyla tamamen yalnız olmadığımızın farkındalığı...Bilmiyorum yazdıklarım size mantıklı geldi mi?,hatta hiç okunur mu? ama eğer buraya kadar okuduysanız size teşekkür etmek istiyorum ve en iyi dileklerimle sıcaktan dolayı yine bulamayacağım uykunun yolunu tutuyorum :D

Dear Seeker

Just came to my mind last night...

You stand on the edge
Of twisting roads and solitude marked signs
An ancient game has begun
The rules are strict
Shifted around with every new perspective to be lost
And the prize is yet to be found

You inhale the persipicacity soaked dust born with every new step
Then exale another memory to be carved under the soil behind you
To merge together with the others before you
The stories of the million footprints searching for their price
In truth seeking the logic behind the rules
The meaning of the game everyone else seems to be playing...

In reality dont we all?
Dont you?
We are all seekers
Lost in our own ways
Looking over a fabricated version of reality
Trying to find the most genuine looking lie among others

We're searching at the wrong place
Swaying in the past, pondering over every tear and smile once shed
Stuttering through the future,calculating consequences and chasing dreams
Meanwhile...
Crawling through today,forgetting the essence of every breath we ever took or will take,
The answer to both our struggles with the past and curiosity of the future

Dear seeker,
The meaning rests in the journey
Not the destination
The rules become clear when ones perception can bind with others eyes
The game is won when you take time to appreciate every minute you've come near to losing
Not when you think you've found the prize....

Dear seeker,
I wrote this poem for you
I hope you will finally find your way
While you savor every step you take
Who knows?
Maybe one day our paths may meet
This time I'll listen to every word blooming from your lips
Till then take care and never give up...

-Another lost seeker

Faun-Egil Saga

This song is so beautiful and relaxing! I absolutely adore the sound of the instruments used.The lyrics seem to be in  Icelandic and this is the best English translation of them that I've found;


“She has been ill for a long time,
she has the exhaustion,
cannot sleep any night and was
as if she had lost reason and shape.”
Runes have been scratched therefore, it is a farmer’s son,
not far from here, he has done that,
but afterwards it was
much worse than before.
Egil scratched runes and placed them under the cushion of the bed
she rested on.
It was to her as if she had awoken from sleep,
and she said she was well now.
Chorus:
No man shall scratch runes
Not being able to use them well;
Many a man is misled
by dark forces.
Ten secret runes have I seen
Scratched on smoothed out fish bone;
For the girl this has caused
sorrow for a long time.

Forgive Me

I look over the sun

Unable to ease my naked vison from its sorrow baked rays

It hurts to see,

All of the pain reality alights....


I hear the crimson shadows lurching through the rusty air

Their screams stuck on their fragile skin

Angst bubbling up under their numbed blood

Dormant until ashes of tears are ready to erupt


But the worst part is to look at their frozen eyes

The depth of the silence in their lost gaze is killing me

So please!

Please...save me from this scorching nightmare...


I want to be beside you

I want the power to let go

I want the courage to accept change

I want the harmony to coalesce with the past

I want the memory to remember how to breathe again

I'm tired......

I want your promise to help me stay

I want your forgiveness for closing my eyes to finally find your way....

Pagoda-Lesson Learned

Been listening to this song all day,Michael Pitt is a genius!

Lesson learned, learned today
My lesson learned, I learned this today
I’m too close to stay away
I’m too far to try and stay
Oh hurt me slowly, I feel your beauty
In every pulse of your sacred heart
Oh easy, easy, watch your cruelty
I felt it faintly from the start
But I don’t want to be you I just want you here, I say
And I don’t want to see you I just need you near
Here we go now

No, no, but yes, but yes, but yes

Head full of these useless questions
I can’t redeem my old temptation
Oh medicate me to ease my pain
Love me, know that I’m insane
Oh hate me, but use me to your liking
Oh yell at me to stop these voices
Become the you, just stop regretting
We’re just animals aware of choices

Our Last Goodbye

Please keep silent
Time is too precious for exhausted words
Dont look around
Its just the minutes and us

Hold me close
Let me feel the soft breathing of your benignant heart
Let me smell your celestial scent
Just one last time....

Please dont tell me that its all going to be okay
For we both know you'll be singing comforting lies
You know I have to go....
Find my way through the path of an immortal dusk

I wish this moment wouldnt drift away...
But the moon is humming goodbye
I wish I could look into your eyes once again
But I wont... for Im afraid I wont be able to look away...
Though I will still feel the warmth of their amber glow
I know their gentle presence would stay
Even when the last tear has been shed
So I'll leave freely,
For I'll know my secrets have dissolved under the safe arms of love.....

Colour Personality Test

A colour test thats designed to help identify your personality,definitely worth a check :D
- http://www.testcolor.com/personalitytest/personalitytest.php

Susan Cain-The Power Of Introverts

A brilliant talk about how our culture has become so exroverted that being an introvert is being viewed as awkward ,even anti-social in a way.Susan Cain makes great points on how this system should be changed by recognizing and appreciating the differences between extroverts and introverts.

I Wont Tell You-Lacuna Coil

This is just pure awsomeness!!!!!  :D

Can't you see?

So sick of it all....

Cant you see?
How your words hurt me
Like wounded daggers aimed straight to my heart
But the imbued silence in your eyes are much worse
For they dig deeper down to my souls hearse

Maybe you're telling the truth
But I dont want to know
Nor do I want sugar-coated lies
I just want your faith in my blithe despondency
Help me calm down my minds ambivalency

Words are never enough to breathe my feelings into you
Neither are these evanescent tears
So just look through me
Can you hear the ink swaying on the paper?
Freeing those invisible screams under the algid vapour

Sceams of delusion that was never cleared
Screams of hatred hidden behind layers of hurt
Screams pain to be endured
Screams of shame to be cured
Screams repeating to be inured...

An infinite cycle of alienation
Trying to make it better
But making it worse instead
Filled with withering images the cycle repeats again
Over and over until routine comes to reign

Do you see now?
But you never did
Neither did they
So please dont ask me anymore questions
There is no explination
Only one demonstration
Our only solution
Let me release my soul to our irenic isolation
Maybe then I'll return with my salvation...

Promise Yourself

Just a poem about my thoughts on the society today

Promise Yourself

Open your eyes
Its time for a new start
A fresh day has risen upon the clouds
Look through the mirror
Carefully paint on a smile
Try not to smudge it with your tears
With being yourself....

When you close that door
Dont forget to wear your mask
Your golden ticket to social inclusion
Proof of your personal existence
Both proud and somber to have earned it,
Gradually walk into the street

Millions of people
Each doing the same thing at a different place
Rushing with the minutes shed by the clock
Where are we all going to?
Who we competing against?
When we dont even have the time to stop and breathe in the essence of life...

You are scared of judgement
You are scared of failing
You feel unappreciated
You feel detatched
You feel misunderstood
But so do they
For emotions are a part of being human

Then why is there so much pain engraved into our names?
What is the reason to this constant emulation?
Why are so many lips smiling while their souls are mourning for freedom?
Why are we living in a World of just black and White?
Have we forgotten the shades of grey?
Blinded by the pressure to survive
While letting our true selfs die...

Life is not about finding yourself,its about creating yourself they say
So you can finally say that I'm...
Hanging diplomas and college degrees on our walls
Hiding behind a social role
But these can only give us the script,
Not the ability to act
How can we define the I when we dont even know who it is?

So please stop dashing with what time has to offer
Or just using it as your escape
No,time wont heal your wounds
But you eventually learn to embrace your sorrow
That no bird can ever fly without falling down first
The only cage around it is fear of falling again
The only key to freedom is fortitude

When the moon alights
Promise yourself,promise me to revive
Burn your masks in your fire of rectitude
Write a poem to the clear midnight air
Whisper to the rain
With no more fearful lies
Say you'll live today
With no more screams to fray...

Archive-Lights

This one just speaks to the soul.....

Holding On

Frozen,she lies on the floor
The reckless flames of her burning soul seek an escape from their rotten cage
Her perishing gaze glinting over its shattered reflection
Bruised fingers tapping along to the rhytm of the rain
Her tired heart once again trys to pump up life....
Despite the constant screams of it’s distorted mind

Holding on becomes a struggle
When emotions die while promises lie
When peace is found under the wings of pain
When tears dry up and let the drought of hopelessness rule her mind
When diciplined thoughts interlock with her frantic feelings....

Now crawling on her knees,she tires to get up again
Fearing her every step
For she will be sacrificing her only weapon against emptiness,
(Pain)
Her only key to the insanity that keeps her sane....

Nails digging up on dirt
Scratching out her lonely words
Prayers hung up on the barren air
Waiting to be swept by the breezes of hope
To finally answer her forlorn calls

Now standing up
Her tears watering her broken soul
Her eyes fixed with determination
She holds her heart under her clinched fists
Her mind is now stronger with the screams of old memories
Willing to take the risk
She holds on....

Öldümmm Biloooo! XD

Koptummmm! :D

The Happy Song-Poets Of The Fall

I declare this my theme song lol :P Though I wish i could dance like that :D

Anytime-Michael Schenker Group

Recently discovered this band and I have to say this has definitely made it to my top 10 :)

Reamonn-Sometimes

Such a beautiful song....

Words on her lips
Begin to slip
She’s loosing her grip
On herself
And when she wants more
Oh no, no
She can’t have more
Oh no, no
She feels like she’s holding back
a life that she deserves

She said Sometimes
You 're asking yourself why
You feel you can’t get by
You feel you 're crawling on your knees

A voice from inside
Oh no, no
Is telling her lies
Oh no, no
Her dreams come crashing down
Like a burning sky at night
No longer a child
You are the one
You can’t deny
What you have become
It can’t hurt you
But it can eat you up inside

She said sometimes
You 're asking yourself why
You feel you can’t get by
You feel you 're crawling on your knees

She said sometimes
You 're asking yourself why
You feel you can’t get by
You 're sick of begging, begging please

And now you stand up
And look them straight in the eyes
You 're not believing their lies
Your taking it straight from the heart
It’s time for a new start
Time for a new start
Cause if it’s not love well
It’s not enough
You deserve more yeah
More than what you’ve got
Inside a voice is screaming
Get off your knees
Get up

She screams
Sometimes
Sometimes their lies are their disguise
Sometimes the beautiful will cry
You 're reaching inside
And now you’re floating like a breeze
And saying goodbye

The Anthem Of Our Secluded Memories

Just felt like writing a poem...

Do you remember?
Remember this very day?
Still so bitterly fresh in your mind
Can you hear the anthem of our secluded memories shattering your plastic protection?

Slowly the images will start to drift in
Captivating your mind using the contrast of innocent rain and roaring thunder
Little teardrops frozen on the window pane
Trapped by lost stares
A poem carved on the musty air
Misunderstood,for the ending lies behind the lines
Path to revcovery ended with proven lies
Decided for you even before the start
Pulsing pain cured by the protection of chemical theories
Who knew it would be so easy to swallow your fear?!
Angst collected by every word left unsaid
Dusted away by every syllable combusting in the air
Along with the desperate silence in your every breath....

Do you remember now?
If so,sing along with me
The anthem of our secluded memories
We’ll keep on singing it
For we both know that ,
Although we have forgiven,
All is not yet forgotten…

STOP IT!

Lol,definitely check this out,some very important advice given here :D

Who Were You In Your Past Life?

This is quite interesting because my result actually made sense to me :) I'd say give this a try :D
http://www.thebigview.com/pastlife/

Entwine-Bleeding For The Cure

Wow....can immensely relate to this...So glad I discovered this band :)

Kızlarla Erkekler Arasındaki Fark :)

Solitude

I confide in solitude

Sunken whispers entwine with the silent words

Foresaken by griefs frozen breath

Sealed with another dark kiss


I let it take over me

Let it seize my soul

Let the pain unfold

So the emptiness inside withdraws....


I confide in solitude

The familiar taste of candied lies

The sweet protection of choreographed dreams

An iron cage built by my fears


I let it take over me

Let it seize my soul

Let the pain unfold

So the emptiness inside withdraws....


I confide in you

I confide in these secret tears we share

I confide in the poison streaming through our veins

I confide in this last breath we share

I confide in heavens despair.....

RED-Take It All Away

Love this one too :)

RED-Fight Inside

I think im obsessed with this song!

Insanları Gözüne Bakarak Tanıyabilir misiniz?-Seri Katil mi? Bilim Adamı mı?

Ilginç bir test,zamanınız varsa bir göz atın derim :)
%90'ını doğru yaptım.:/...sanırım polisiye romanları okumaya ara vermeliyim :)

http://www.benoyum.com/?p=4692

Kişilik Testi

Myers-Briggs kişilik testi :
http://www.e-ik.com/mbti-kisilik-testi/


Sonuçlar için buraya tıklayın :)
http://www.e-ik.com/myers-briggs-kisilik-tipleri/

Ölümle Dans

Eskiden sular dingin
Yansımalarsa berraktı
Yüzler yeni
isimler ise eskiydi....

Uçmak zor değildi
Sevmek zor değildi
'Hissetmek' zor değildi

Oysaki düşmekte bir uçma biçimiydi
Sevgi sadece şiirlerde nefes alırdı
Acı tek hissedilebilen duyguydu
Ölüm ise yalanlara boyanmış bu dünyadaki tek gerçekti....

Sonsuzluğun tatlı ezgisi
Gerçekle birleşti
Etrafımda süzülen bir melek gibi
Huzurlu ve sessiz...

Dans ettim onunla
Dışarıdaki seslerin boğuk yankısının eşliğinde
Birileri adımı haykıryordu
Kapılar çarpılıyor,sesler çoğalıyordu...

Artık unuttuğum huzurun güven veren kokusunu alabiliyordum
Gözyaşlarının sıcaklığını hissedebiliyordum
Yalanlar siliniyordu
Gerçekler yazılıyordu

Her harf saf ve doğru
Her hece taze
Her sözcük bir başlangıç
Her cümle ise bir sondu
Yansımalar yeniden berraklaşmıştı...

Personal DNA

Came across this site randomly and took the test and the results were actually pretty accurate.My result was a generous thinker.

If you have time,check out this site to take the test as well! :) http://www.personaldna.com/

Creation's Tears-Odyssey

Just came across this a few days ago and now, i cant stop listenning to it! love the guitar :)

All I want...

Just confused emotions I guess....

My four walls of hostility are drawing closer again
Each one representing my four loyal friends;
Pain,emptiness,anger and fear...
Their eyes scowl and their lips sneer

Once again they sing their bitter anthem
Every word that rolls out of their tongues
Buds into static hisses
As the past reminisces

Now my mind is drowning in senile memories
As I stagger between two worlds Ive never belonged into
I dont want to wish upon yesterday and escape into the wonders of imagination
Nor do I want to remain stuck behind the walls of today
All I want...
Is to unite with the mauve hopes of tommorow....

I lost Myself-ReVamp

Just came across it and I have to say it touched my heart so much...sad yet beautiful....

Yanındayım....

Hayat bir sınav derlerdi eskiden
Ama cevaplar yerine soruları aradım hep
Doğru ile yanlış var mıydı?
Gerçek sadece rüyalarda mı yaşardı?

Saatler günler
Günlerse aylar oldu
Her gün gözümü açtığım yeni bir kabus
Her ay ise omzumda taşıdığım hapsedilmiş gözyaşlarıydı

Kimseye duyuramadığım umutsuz haykırışlarım
Günler çoğaldıkça
Etrafımdaki gri duvarlarda yankılanan
Sessiz çığlıklara dönüştü

Her biri kırılp düştü yere
Narin ama aynı zamanda keskin
Zamanla, o çok iyi bildiğim...
Korkunun ıssız tadıyla bütünleşti

Korku arttıkça
Kör gözlerden gelen
Biraz acıma,biraz da küçümsemeyle dolu
Boş bakışlar çoğaldı...

Kimse görmüyor mu?
Cam kırıklarının yazdığı son soruyu
Sen ?....
Oysa ki cevabı kolaydı
O da 'yanındayım' demendi.....

Remembering....

Recently I have been thinking about how time passes by so quickly and yet I seem to stay at the same spot throughout every minute ticking along and how I just stand there counting the seconds as they pass me by...But then I remembered how time used to feel like an eternity,how seconds  were minutes and minutes were hours...each one was to be savoured for every new day shining upon me was another opportunity for discovering,researching,inventing,imagining and enjoying....As childhood memories wrapped themselves around my thoughts,I asked myself,what changed?,Whats the reason to this 'emptiness'?,is this 'growing up'?.....I used to think that meant I could stay up until late hours,it meant that I could buy and eat as many sweets as I wanted,it meant I would be tall,it meant I could drive a car,it meant I could go on the big rollercoaster rides,it meant I could wear makeup and high heels....it meant.....freedom.But then i guess,freedom meant responsibility and with that came stress which changed my interpretation of time.There was too much to do and yet too little time.Every new day became another chain to the same routine,slowly building an iron rope around my neck.By time I got used to it and like a puppet,I followed the same routine,the same acts controlled by social norms and rules.But putting everything aside,I wasnt lonely,isnt this how we all feel from time to time? like every today is a reenactment of yesterday? But it doesnt have to be.What we should all see is that we have forgotten how to 'imagine' and 'dream'.I realised that the lack these two terms were the emptiness,they were the abilities that I had as a child which made time 'worthwhile' and that time, was my 'forgotten eternity'.So, in the end I think we should take childeren as an example and dream,imagine,think,reflect and finally do (which was the freedom we lacked as a child) in order to create change and actually make use of the time we have. We should 'remember'......

Beyaz Yalanlar

Karanlığın soğuk pençesinde
Tutsak kalmış umutlar
Acının ısıttığı güneşte
Asılı kalmış anılar

Soluk gözyaşlarının ardına gizlenmiş
Canlı korkular
Dudaklarımın arasındaki boşlukta
Kaybolmuş heceler

Aldığım her nefeste yankılanan
Suskun sesler
Hepsinin ortasında kalmış
Sonu daha yazılmamış bir masal yaşar

Anlatamadığım o unutulmuş hikaye
Dinlemediğin o masum nağme
Gösteremediğim sonsuz sözcükler
Göremediğin boşluğa uzanan virgüller

Onları görmek yerine
Noktalarla doldurdun başlangıcı
Daha başından inkar ettin gerçekleri
Anlamak istemedin dediklerimi

Gözlerimin içine baksaydın
Belki anlardın.....
Ama saniyeler çoğaldıkça
Sen geciktin.....

Artık toprak kırmızıyla beslendi
Üstünü beyaz yalanların süsledi....

Insanity=Overdose Of Poignant Emotions

I just noticed how we use the word 'insanity' so often .....but I think in a way we are actually abusing its real meaning while doing so because usually we seem to use it in a wrong way.So,what is the definition of Insanity? According to the dictionary,it is a mental illness or derangement.Dementia, lunacy, madness, craziness, mania, aberration.....as the synonyms go on.....However I dont agree completely with this statement.To me insanity is the overdose of poignant emotions and not knowing how to deal with these... Since we are all human and we all experience intense emotions such as pain,burden,happiness,excitement,love,jealousy,anger,hate,fear,even emptiness......then arent we all somewhat insane? The only line that divides us into being 'normal' or being 'insane' is the ability to be aware of,embrace and enshroud those powerfull feelings.Because being concious of what we are actually feeling behind those emotions leads to an understandment of ourselves,then this will lead to realising that 'fighting' them, 'ignoring',' denying' or simply giving into them wont help at all,what can help us is loving ourselves,accepting our emotions,accepting ourselves for who we are...accepting both good and bad.And finally not forgetting that we are not alone with these emotions that we cannot control,everybody goes through them at some point of their life...After all,we can only know what the light feels like when we have felt the dark.

Silentium-Unbroken

Beautiful....Especially love the lyrics :)

To Bid You Farewell...

Walking along an empty path
Every step I take is gilded by decayed roses
Their petals swept away by the winds of betrayal
Chanting away our grim fate....

I still remember your promises
Now turned into ashes burning under the cracks in my heart
And here you are asking me if you can glue them back together
Honey...dont you know whats already broken cannot be mended ?

The truth is I will never be whole again
Because you were my other half
But I guess the one I saw as true..wasnt you
It was  your facade of lies....

Im here for the last time
So please,just listen to my tears
They will sing you hymns of a forgotten tale
They will whisper you these chains of lost poems that I hung behind my pain
They are here....
To finally bid you farewell....,